It’s been a long while… Yeah, I know. Weeks’ passed. I kept ‘thinking’ posts in my head—all the things I wanted to blog about, experiences I wanted to record— but never really got down to actually writing and publishing any. It wasn’t really that I didn’t have enough time, or better still, that I couldn’t make some time to write here. It was that I was in a mental space where the last thing I wanted to do was to blog. At some point, it crossed my mind for a moment to close this site and just forget about everything here. Life became tedious and felt like a heavy ship. Really…
The past few weeks have been really stressful for me, physically, emotionally, name it. And I’m just barely coming out of it all wondering how the heck I managed not to break down completely.
I had several important projects going on simultaneously and my anxiety levels sort of quadrupled. That aside a major decision I had to make about a situation I didn’t quite understand at the time but had to face squarely and take an irreversible step: it was like the world was about to end at my doorstep for short.
But I survived!
Sometimes, I forget the fact that I made it out of a particularly tough period of my young adult life and begin to worry about a whole lot of other shoulda, coulda, woulda, but other times, I am brave enough to stop myself dead in the track and practice self compassion.
Thankfully, I also had to travel a lot within this period—and they were ‘all expenses paid’ trips, with just enough comfort to cushion my internal stresses— and this served as a much needed distraction. #Grateful
With all these things and more going on, the month of August, especially, really felt a lot like it lasted like 5 minutes timewise, and I wouldn’t even believe it was anything like a whole 31 individual days if in the midst of the chaos, I didn’t strive to read, every other day, from the difficult pages of a very long story (which I eventually finished reading as part of my obligations in a book club I now belong to) and journal here and there while the many days flew quickly by like mere seconds.
August went and September came. And I am grateful for the lessons I was able to squeeze out, two of which I am about to share with you my esteemed readers!
First is—and I know you know this before, but for emphasis!— worrying can be a very useless activity as most often what we die worrying about never really happen eventually! If only we remember this in time and SAVE ourselves the needless negativity that comes with worry or fear!
Secondly, it is so easy to feel so overwhelmed by a huge responsibility or be afraid of executing a certain project, but nothing, ever, is the end of the world. You are going to do that thing, complete that project, go through that experience, accept that responsibility, execute that task, AND
You are not going to NOT survive it. Hehehehehe!!! C’mon, you are going to do just fine! And if you don’t, you are not going to be the first on that. Every experience, task or project is a chance to learn, unlearn, relearn and grow. So don’t worry about a thing, try not to worry, at least, just take one step at a time.
At a time.
You will be fine.